Might come off as annoying when posting this but it’s not my intention. Just want to share a piece of my mind!
There are countless of “my art sucks, oh no, fml, art block, what is art, why me, etc” memes/drawings/parodies from really good artists out there. I know most of them are meant to be funny – and they are to some extent! – but some of them just make think: why are you doing this to yourself?
When this phrase got to me: “Doesn’t matter how slow you go, as long as you don’t stop” it was much easier for me to stay peaceful in difficult times of creating and lack of free time to draw. I figured it’s important to learn to stay proud about my progress no matter how slow I am some days or if something turns out like shit constantly for weeks. It’s crucial to fail to succeed!
A really skillful artist friend of mine once said something like this:
The more you learn the harder it gets. It’s not supposed to get easier, so don’t make it harder for yourself!
Now that it’s official I can finally share the reason why I have been so absent as of late!
The company I have been working for since 2008 has filed bankruptcy. This company has been like a second family to me. It was partially my company after all! I was there from the beginning when it was all late Skype meetings and ideas to an organisation in an office. From 5 people to 20+. It’s indeed really something incredible to have experienced this early in my career! I wouldn’t trade it for anything!
It’s been a long and bumpy road with lots of up and downs. We have faced many hardships like these and been able to put our heads together, work really hard and overcome them but this time we did not succeed.
I’m going to be alright but I am very sad about the fate of this company. So many talented people who put their hearts, lives and so much effort into our products. But due to some unfortunate events the company is coming to an end.
I’ve learnt so much these 4 years and I have had a lot of fun. But the last months have been very difficult. These years I’ve dealt with 90h+ weeks of crunches tons of times without any problem because it’s been fun, I’ve been doing it with awesome people, with friends, in the same boat. But to see so many people go, the people you admire wear out, the company slowly going into nothingness and at the same time do 3 people’s worth of work in attempt to keep the company alive have been so draining. This has been going on for some months. I am not lying to you when I say I’ve been doing nothing but sit in my sofa and stare into nothingness when I have been off work (aside from working out – because that is my one and only stress relief these days! Haha!). I’m glad that the waiting for answer about the company’s future is over but I’m very sad about the result.
There is still some work left to do in the aftermath of the bankruptcy but when that’s done next step for me is to update my portfolio and put together all of my best pieces from these years into a new show reel! My portfolio is soooo very old and dusty right now.
I’ll be up and running before you know it!
I’m really optimistic about where I might end up. It’s scary but sooo exciting!
Thanks for everyone’s support through these years, friends and family! Esp. thanks to my Robe and to Kichisu & Monni for being there for me this year when I’ve been stressed out about the future! <3 <3
There, now that I have written this on tumblr, I think I have shared it on all channels. Now I can move on! And maybe start posting more interesting stuff. Sooon!
It’s been an exciting project and now – 3 months
after finishing it - I can’t realize how I managed to draw
1 character a day because it feels like I am still as busy
as ever! It was an amazing exercise, though. I
recommend it to anyone who wants a challenge
or simply get back into regular drawing.
These last characters are a bit random and
do not follow a certain theme. Enjoy!
To see the books I drew all of
the 365 characters in go here.
These were originally drawn
2010 November 15:th – 2010 November 18:th
To see an index of all the 365 characters click here.
Sliding Cat – my original cat character
Soldat J (Pizza) from The King of Braves GaoGaiGar
(I drew this for Diana! <3)
Btw, she had a 365 project too!
Check it out on the link!
Kiran Dinravell – Original Character
This is one of my first original characters from
1998. I don’t draw him much these days since
he doesn’t really have a story. Here’s an older drawing of him.
And yes, you are right, Kiran
is an altered version of my name.
My Robert! <3
I don’t draw him much because even if he
appreciates my drawings of him, he’s not very
smooth on giving feedback. His reaction to this
was “Why don’t I have as cool weapon as that
dude has? (pointing to Kiran drawing)”
That’s all, people! Thanks
for following this project!
Wow, I slept for way too long today. I just got home from grocery shopping and half of the day has passed. Argh! Anyway, I was going to write a short entry about OMGPOP. It’s a community with tons of mini games. My friend Emelie introduced it to me and yesterday we played one game called Draw My Thing, which was super funny. It’s a draw-and-guess game. Time really flies by while playing that game. Then I tried out Putt Putt Penguin which was really funny too. It’s like mini golf, except it’s on ice and you need putt your penguin into the whole. I won twice but it felt really random. My mouse started to act up one time and I dropped the sling repeatedly without actually clicking. XD
I went by bicycle to work today. Wow, what a workout! It’s about 15 km (9.3 miles) from where I live to the office. That makes it 30 km (18.5 miles) today! I hope to keep it up. They are renewing the railways which means the trains are really late (aka goes at random point of time) and FULL of passengers. A few days ago the train was so full they asked people to take an other train, but these trains only go once an hour while the railways are being reconstructed. Argh! And they aren’t finished until 2:nd of august, so I saw this as a great opportunity to take the bike to work.
This is certainly a movie I want to see when I get the chance. This reminds me that there is a version of this movie’s main theme that reminds me so much of how my little brother’s voice sounded like when he was reaaaally small. I remember a short documentary about a tame carpercaillie that used to lurk around our lower school. In this short documentary they interviewed him while he pet the bird. And his voice was something like this!
Highlight of the day: Ponyo music, and managing to bike to work without passing out. XD